heel al (4)

In order to accomplish that... 

consciousness must first dis-identify... 

from all fixed conceptual selves with which it has identified itself. Because if it holds to being some fixed and enduring conceptual self, there will be no tolerance for those experiential realities which are in contradiction with this fixed, conceptual, 'official' self.

If you have a certain idea of how you should be, then you cannot accept the experiential truths of your being. If you have the idea that you have to be a brave man, that bravery is a value, then it is difficult to accept your cowardice. 

If you have the idea that you have to be a Buddha-like person, compassionate, absolutely compassionate, then you cannot accept your anger. 

It is the ideal that creates the problem.

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If you don't have any ideals... 

then there is no problem at all. 

You are a coward, so you are a coward.

And because there is no ideal of being a brave man, you don't condemn the fact: you don't reject it, you don't repress it, you don't throw it into the basement of your being so that there is no need for you ever to look at it.

But anything that you throw into your un-conscious will go ON functioning - from thére. It will go ON creating problems for you. It is like a disease that you have pushed inwards. 

It was coming to the surface, and from the surface there was a possibility that it might have disappeared... If a wound comes to the surface it is good! It is on the way to being healed! 

Because it is only on the surface... 

that it will be in contact with fresh air... and the sun... and can be healed. If you force it inwards, if you don't allow it to come to the surface, then it is going to become a cancer. 

Even a small disease, repressed, can become a dangerous disease. 

No disease should ever be repressed.

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But the repression is natural... 

if you have some ideal. 

Any ideal will do. If you have the ideal of being a celibate, a Brahmachari, then sex becomes the problem. You can't watch it. If you don't have the ideal of becoming a celibate, then sex is not rejected. 

Then there is no division... 

between you and your sexuality. 

Then there is communion.

And that communion brings joy.

Self-communion is the base of all joy.

~osho~

unio mystica vol.1

(1978) - ch.8 q.1